Putting My Trust in Him

I have found that I constantly try and do things in my own

strength and not in God's. It's stupid I know... I don't know

why I think I could do anything better then if I just trusted

him in it and let him guide me. I have noticed lately me

falling flat on my face more and more and I just wonder

what does it look like to truly rely on him for everything?

I think sometimes we jus get to be such control freaks that

everything has to look the way we think it she looks.

God is so creative and he works things out in ways we

never would have thought and I think sometimes that

can be alittle scary not really knowing how its all going to workout.

I've heard that if we do the possible God will do the impossible.

God wants us to pour ourselves into the things that our on his heart.

God has been breaking my heart for so many things lately.

Especially in the area of medical missions and there is a school I want

to do through YWAM called the IPHC (Introduction to Primary Health Care)

it's been so fraustrating cause I just want to go and do it. I feel

so confused I think God is asking my to stay on staff for one 

more year but it's so hard me to think that I might not be 

going out of the country for one more year. God has been laying

so many countries on my heart and hurts to think that I won't be able 

to do what I'm really passionate about for another year.

I like working at the base. I love the people ad I like the jobs that I do,

but the don't give me life I don't get excited about them.

I feel like I'm in this lull in life right now like I'm kind of stuck.

So I'm really praying that God will give me a clear vision of what

he wants me to do.

My small group!

Last quarter I had the amazing privlage of having 5 small group girls to discplie during their DTS. My lovely friend Jami did a photo shoot for me of my small group. Have fun meeting my girls!

                Joy, JoHanna, Emma, Me, Alissah, and Sarah

                                   Our HSM Pose

                                  My beautiful girls

This past quarter was challenging and so much fun. I really couldn't believe that my leaders and God trusted me with 5 girls to disciple! Right before last quarter started God started bringing up alot of things in my life.I felt like such a mess I thought there was no way I was in a place to be in such a place of leadership. I felt like I should have it all together and be this perfect small group leader and then God just spoke to me be real. That it wasn't about me being the perfect small group leader. That the best way I can be a small group leader and the best way my girls can learn from me is by me being real and who God made me. I feel like even in my brokenness I have never been more in tune with God then in last quarter.

Fall DTS

As most of you know I am staffing our Young Peoples DTS at our mountain campus this fall. We just finished our second week of the school. We have 32 students in YPDTS they are all seeking the lord and are really wanting to grow in their relationship with God. I feel so blessed to work with this school I have 5 small group girls who I disciple and help walk through this time with them. The are an awesome group their names are Sarah, Joy, Alissah, Emma, and Johanna. Living up at Eagle Rock our mountain campus is so amazing every morning I walk out of the lodge and I'm in the middle of the Rocky Mountains. We live with the students 24/7 we cook, clean, eat, sleep, and go to class with them. The nights are filled with fun and games alot of the times we play dutch blitz or volleyball. Its an intense time in my life giving so much of my time evey minute of the day I have to force myself to take time away and pray and be filled with the word.

On staff a year

I can't believe I have been on staff for almost a year it feels like five. Alot has happened in the last year. I am have grown soooo much yea it was hard at times and at the time I know that I was fraustrated but now looking back I see God in every situation teaching me something new.

What I have learned:

-That I should be grateful for each day
-That God's timing is best
-To be content where I'm at that I can minister to
students even if I'm not working with the school
-God is in every situation
-I may know what I want,but God knows when I'm ready